early morning...

It's 3:44 am. I'm up pumping, watching an episode of modern family and blogging. Aaron is feeding Nathan. I hate this. I want to be he one feeding him, not sitting in our room pumping. It's  so frustrating to have all the parts for the job but not the technique. It may sound silly but I feel like I'm missing out on bonding time. I understand Aaron needs his time with him also but I really get jealous. Aaron said that I have him all day and that is when we are bonding. I just feel helpless at night, I have to wake up every few hours regardless...I just wish there was more I could do.

*mamaLu